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I am finally starting to break down. I really haven't had a second to myself to think because I have been so extremely busy with my friends and trying to keep myself going. I have really realized that I won't be able to see Buddy until september, AND I really won't see him much at all this year. Before it seemed fine that I'd be able to see him on major holidays and then he has 2 weekend leaves, but it is just so weird that when I do see him it'll only be in little spurts. WHY IS THIS SO HARD?! I wish life could be easy. I hate long distance relationships. How can one second Buddy and I are having the time of our lives together, seeing each other every single day at school, and then all of the sudden our entire relationship is changed and I never see him anymore? And I don't get to talk to him at all! That's the worst part! I'll just be happy to be able to talk to him at all. Why does God throw these obstacles our way? It sucks so badly! I guess I'm not the only one going through this. Millions of military families are going through the same empty pain that I am feeling, and girlfriends and wives of them are hurting just as much as I am. I right now I just can't wait to see him. It still drives me crazy that I am not able to know what he is doing every day. I still haven't heard from him in a letter, but hopefully he will tell me what they have been doing. uuhhhhggggggg my life!