Going insane!

Its only day 5 of not seeing Buddy, and only day 3 of not being able to talk to him and I am already going crazy! All I can think about is him, dream about is him, talk about is him, and I think I am psycho! Wow. How much do I miss him you ask? More than words can even describe! I am literally counting down the days until I can even just talk to him! I miss him so so so so so much! It is really good though because I have kept myself extremely busy to the point where I have barely had a minute to myself. The only times I have had a minute to myself is when I am in the car. Those times can be hard because his piggy bank is sitting in the passenger seat, and we were supposed to get it cashed together. I know that is such a little thing to worry about, but its a constant reminder that he is gone. But it also makes him real in  a way because sometimes it feels like he isn't even alive. The thing that drives me the most crazy is the fact that I have no idea what he is doing! I am just dying to know what kind of awesome things he has experienced already. He is in a totally different world than I am in right now and it is just crazy how close our hearts are, but how different and far away our lives are right now. If I didn't have family or friends I would be dying right now. I have already seen Sushi, Buddy's grandma; I have talked to one of his brothers, his mom, and his dad. I have been doing very well with keeping up with his family. It makes me feel closer to him because I know that they miss and love the same person that I do. Buddy has brought so many people together just be succeeding in life and doing so well for himself. I have developed a great relationship with his mom, dad, dad's girlfriend and her daughter, his brothers and sister, and grandma! We have all come together to pull each other through this hard time with out him. God bless him and his family! Come home soon Buddy, we love you and miss you!